Salmah Luth J

I learnt so many things for the past few weeks. things that give me so many reasons to repent,to thank Allah swt,to be grateful and etc. its not that i just got back from an islamic camp or i  baru lepas  join team usrah but its my environment, circle of people that im currently with. theyre not that islamic either. most of the things that they do are not something that can be proud of.  but i realized that , the one  yang  actually  nampak jahat,teruk,jauh dari islam sebenarnya jauh lagi baik dari orang yang  i thought were actually good. They might be bad, but they respect people around em more than that  alim  type people. their heart is sincere than me. they accept people around them for who they are. They might be a gangster, but they treat the waiters at the restaurant like a friend. They cheer em up. They understand how hard the waiters day were. They feed the stray cat and treat them with respect while some of the hijabista stylista w...

I would like to thank everyone yang gigih duk celebrate, suprise my eighteen birthday last january 23rd harituh! Sumpah tak expect anything since yall are so good in acting and stuff. And ofcourse thanks for all those wishes. I appreciate it more than you think. Not gonna ss cause u know who u are :)  Thank you for the mini celebration! Paling suka my birthday cake. Since givin a sponge cake is too mainstream, they suprised me with a doughnut cake. Haha love it alot. And of course thank you for the karaoke sesh and supper treat.  Thankyou alot for this suprise tak jadi. I love it anyways. Kak nora should really learn how not to spoil a suprise party hahah. Thankyou for the creampuffs oreo cake. You do really know my favs!  This one sumpah tak expect. Haha. It was already january 29 something and they still celebrate my birthday. We were chillin at tajine like usual and i tak sense anythg since everyone yg ada kt situ dah celebrate my birthday but then the band nyanyi lagu...

" so nak further mana lepas ni? ' omg i got this question alot these past four weeks! and it scare the hell outta me like excuse me further study is a frickin big issue okay, its all bout my future. as for me, there are lots of things in my mind. sometimes i wanna be in this field and sometimes i dont.  i want to study something new, something that i love so i wont waste my dewasa  life soon doin things that i hate for my entire life. i want to be in the field where i can be productive and beneficial to everyone once i graduated. not just graduated then kerja makan gaji. i want to contribute something to my country that is beneficial to everyone.  im glad to help people but pursuing my study in a medic fields and be a doctor is so not me. trust me im having a big crisis on differentiating veins arteries and capillaries. memorizing all the hormones and nerves? sorry wats dat dealing with electrical stuffs are cool and fun but im not a big fans of electricity. im just a suc...

i hate that feeling. when i randomly feel depressed. there is no warning, no apparent reason. it just happens. i feel empty, and i feel hopeless. and  i just feel tired. as if i never want to move again. then when someone ask i whats wrong, i cant say bcausse there is nothing that comes to my mind. then i start thinking of what it could be and i realize just how much is wrong. do yo know that feeling? it sucks.

as life goes on im starting to learn more and more about responsibility and i just realized that whatever i do will affect people around me. so i want to take time out to apologize for things that ive done things that havent occured yet.