Daddy

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I still remember waking up every morning listening to voice of you reciting the words from the Holy Quran. And then you'll wake me up from sleep just by calling my name softly, god i will never forget that voice. And sometimes when i am too lazy to iron my school uniform, you will iron it for me even when it was already late at night and when you dropped me at school you will always help me to look the best because you know how your daughter gets if she looks bad in the morning. 11 years of schooling, you have been there for me sending and taking me back from school, extra classes, tuition classes, school activities say it 6am or 6pm. You have always been my number one supporter. You support me in everything that i am doing. You free your time to be with me, to make sure I am happy. You will bring me my favourite drink everytime you pick me up from school. I still have that sight of you waiting for me patiently, sweating infront of my school gate. A sight that i never want to forget or erase from my memory. You worked so hard for me, for us, for our family like you dont even know what is the meaning of rest, tired or even giving up. There are literally nothing that you cannot do. You can solve my addmaths exercises, do house wiring, build up things and furniture, fix the broken lamp, be a plumber, build a garage, do medicine, draw, sings, play instruments, talk politics or even fly the airplane. You can basically rule the world if you want to. He is a true definition of a Man.
I still remember the day i lost you for 10 minutes. I can still hear the voice of mama crying saying no outside of the ccu. At that moment i was so lost, completely shut down. I didnt even cry, but constantly praying to god to take me before you. At that moment, all i could think of was for god to take my live instead of yours. I dont know whats the point of living without you by my side thats why i rather go. Few minutes past, the doctor declared that you had passed away but Allah has always been the best of planner, he really does listen to our prayer, you are alive few minutes after the doctor declared that you had passed away. Of course you were having various kind of complications as your heart had stopped beating for 10 minutes but you are alive and that is what matter the most. He is a real fighter.

And he managed to make it till his birthday today,
Happy 55th Birthday Daddy Sayang. I love you eternally.

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