My 🌏

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I dont know if there is any days passed without me missing him. I guess i miss him every day without even having the slightest intention to stop.

I miss every seconds i spent with him.
How he used to pick me up and send me to school every single day for 11 years without knowing the meaning of tired or exhausted.
He showers his love to me continuosly generously.
He loves me when i couldnt even love my self.
He talks to me like a friend, support me in every single thing that i wanna do in life even tho sometimes it is beyond his expectation.
He supports my dreams of becoming a politician ever since i was small and till now.
The one who taught me the true definition of one can live a happy life even if u dont have a lot of money.
The one who gets excited whenever i tell him about me emceeing an event, winning an open debate competition or going to the parliament.  
He sacrificed like a lot just to make sure that i am happy.
He doesnt mind not having anything in this world just to make sure im happy.
He makes sure i got what im craving for when im hungry at 1am in the morning. 
He is the one who call me every single day im in college, asking me about hows my day goin without knowing the meaning of boring.
The one who would waste his money on me without any hesitations.
The one who would bring me my favourite green tea everytime i got back from school before because he knows that im having a hard day in school.
The one who never forced me to do the things that i dont want to do instead he pray for me on a daily basis. 

God if i were to describe every good deeds that he has ever done to me i swear to god even the skies could not bear to listen to it. The one who never asked about anything in return for what he has done for his family. All he wants is for his family to be genuinely happy and success in dunia and akhirat.  

The most important part is that deep down inside i know for sure that he would go through hell just to make sure that his family is happy. 

Daddy, ive experienced losing you once and i swear to god i dont want to experience any of that feelings ever again for the time being. Never in a million years i felt so very empty just by the thoughts of losing someone even until today. Youre the strongest human being ive ever known existed and seeing u in the ccu room every day for 2 months straight has never failed to break my heart. Ever since then i started to learn about those medical terms that i never bother on learning before just because i wanna know more than what the doctors said. I became pro on reading the ecg, even better knowing the function of every vessels in the body. even worse i wanna sacrifice my ambition and focus on being a doctor so that i can be your one and only doctor. 

Lordd if only u know how much love i have for u daddy i think it would have drained the entire ocean 

I owe u nothing but the world
May Allah swt grants u the highest of Jannah cause u deserve that and only that

Happy fathers day, daddy
xx

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