Unappreciated

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Back then, i honestly dont care about other people around me. All i care about is my own damn self and of course my family. Why should i waste my time giving a damn about other's life like u dont give me money so back off. 

But...

I grow up. I believe that i shouldnt be selfish. I should give a shit about others feelings too like come on everyone deserves to be happy. Since im a very positive girl that rich with positive vibes i decided to sprinkle some of my positive vibes to people around me cuz yknow i consider that as "sodaqatun jariah".
I tried my best to be the most kindhearted human ever alive on earth. I sacrificed my sleep time hearing people's problems. I sacrificed my precious time comforting people. I sacrificed everything for people around me cause i believe that bila i susah diorang akan tolong i balik and for every kebaikan kita buat Allah akan balas dengan kebaikan...

But.....

I was wrong. They were never there for me when i needed them the most. Never were.
I dont know where it went wrong. I dont know what sin ive done to them or maybe this is how they balas jasa orang yang buat baik dengan diorang? Who knows right..

i would go through hell for you but u will still wont appreciate it

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